i ask him why he never left me when he had a chance to get out-
to run and hide
and he replies with "when?"
and i thought i made them all so dramatic that way, that way he would remember them
and i wouldnt have to remind him or myself, "oh, you know when i overdosed and was in the hospital" or
"when i was sleeping with so and so and told you about it" or "all those times i left and slammed your door".
am i so fucked up that i cant see that this is it?
who is giving who chances to leave?
and who is really telling the other person- "i love you"??